bllllggllglgl

so frustrated
-feel like i'm wasting a lot of my time, but don't know what to do and
-afraid to change things that used to define me (such as obsessive, continuous tv watching)
-need to apply for jobs, but scared of rejection/failure as usual
-hate myself but continue to write narcissistic blog entries
-not tired at all but would feel guilty about staying up
-don't know why i didn't capitalize anything, i guess it makes me seem more out of sorts.
-damn it

must... become... more... awesome!